Silent Answer

These last 3 or 4 days have been an absolute hell for me. My dog dies who has been with since I was born. We all saw it coming, we just didn't want to admit it, we didn't want to see it happen but it did. Was it for the better that he died? I believe so, due to the fact he was suffering his last 3 days. Regardless though, I will miss him. He meant so much to me, its like a part of me died along with him. These events over the series of these last few days have had me questioning my faith in god. I don't know what I believe in anymore. I don't know if I want to believe in anything.