I'm Burning And Nothing Could Put This Fire Out

Over the past few years, I have been able to maintain control over my anger, over my feelings. I pent it up hoping that it would never be dispersed. I can't do it anymore. I had a massive release of anger. It was over various things. I couldn't control myself. I wanted to hurt someone. I put a hole through my wall. I was thouroughly disgusted with myself. I wanted to do something that my philosophy goes aginst. Maybe it's just the testostrone flowing. I don't know. I just hope it never happens again. I can't keep my feelings pent up. I need to release it in small burst. I just need to stay calm.